Friday, December 19, 2008

Live Through This


Dear Dad,

It’s been a while since I’ve written. We’ve been busy with your cancer treatments. It continues to be very hard to deal with your illness on a number of levels. It’s left me scrambling to find the time to drive us to the cadre of doctors spread out over Castro Valley and San Leandro.

I am taking leave from work and that should help. Have you heard of Family Medical Leave? Basically without retaliation from my employer I am allowed to take up to 12 weeks off in a calendar year to care for a relative or spouse or even bond with a new child and 6 weeks of that can be paid, although at a reduced percentage of my annual income.

Once that’s squared away I should be able to find more time. It’s tough to live through this, tougher than I imagined. On my way back home tonight, I wound up eating a burrito at a quarter to 10 and I know that tomorrow I'll have to be up early to pick you up again. It’s the little things like eating right that get neglected.

You’re starting to worry me though, because you began ever so softly to become ambivalent about the prognosis and treatment. More and more you are becoming disorganized and confused, it feels like time is running out.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Taking Stock

Before it could even celebrate a one year anniversary, it was announced yesterday that the Photoshelter Collection would be closing. I’ve been in the middle for a while now. Initially I was super excited to get on board with the “Collective” (sometimes I can’t resist my inner Star Trek geek).

I thought I was getting in on the ground floor and bucking the system. I certainly wasn’t about to prostitute myself to any micro-stock company for loose change that won’t even cover expenses. However I still wasn’t able to be in a prominent, large, stable stock house.

I’ll be refocusing on quality images and building a marketable library on the PS archive while investigating my options at other companies. I’ve got a website re-launch planned, that will further link my archive and clients. Lastly I’ve got a whole lot of desire to make this work. I’m excited about my future as an assignment/editorial and stock photographer.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Making Other Plans

I have been told that life is what happens when you are busy making other plans. When I hear this I divide the difference between what I have accomplished, what I am planning and what has happened instead. The result is often a hodgepodge of successes, failures and pipe dreams that may never be.

Regardless of how much money I spend on a project, it never is a failure. Take Google for example. They recently bid $5 billion on wireless spectrum that they had zero plans for. Google is known for risky, off the cuff decisions that sometimes lead to useless products and dead ends. Ever heard of Google Ride Finder and Google Mars? The question though becomes was it worth the investment and I think looking at their 25 percent net profit is enough to make a case of the end justifying the means.

I am in the subway, staring at a movie poster thinking about what plans I have for the rest of the day when this older Asian fellow strikes up a conversation. He asks for directions on which train will take him to West Portal. He then makes small talk asking me what I do for a living and when I tell him he shakes my hand vigorously and says “Aaahhh.” His name is Dennis Lee and he too is a photographer. Like a magician he suddenly produces a small photo book and starts showing me his portfolio.

We talk about his work and mine. The train comes and he asks for my card and if I want to go get coffee at the Metro Center. Suddenly I realize he is lonely. That’s when I realize he spotted my camera back pack and knew I was a photographer from the beginning. I chuckle to myself; it was his plan the entire time.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Dr. Brown

When I was a kid I loved Dr. Brown’s Black Cherry soda. One of my favorite things to do was walk up College Avenue in Berkeley to this little café that I can’t seem to remember the name of and buy a can of what I considered to be one of the finest, most exquisite sodas ever made. It came in these cute little bottles with a Styrofoam label that I would try and peel off as thinly as possible in one continuous strand.

This went well for a while, until one day it was declared that my patronage of the nameless café would have to cease. A higher authority, using sophisticated intelligence beyond the comprehension of a seven-year-old had discovered that this unnamed café was a front for a commune of “Moonies.” That’s right, disciples of the Reverend Sun Myung Moon were shamelessly enticing recruits with Dr. Brown’s Black Cherry soda. I was torn between utter loss and thankfulness at not having been coerced into the Unification Church. After my attempts to locate another supplier failed, I became interested in all that there was to know about communes and alternate religions.

This was a strongly anti-cult period of time in America. I read a story in “Life” magazine about a commune that wanted to separate itself from mainstream society and disassociate itself from all things not made by their own hands. This worked pretty well, except that members couldn’t shake their desire for Snickers candy bars among some of the other finer things in life. I remember with shock, watching TV as the camera paned across piles of bodies at Jonestown in Guyana.

Years later I was overjoyed when I discovered the gloriously elusive soda at a small delicatessen in Reno. I bought a bottle and quickly cracked the plastic cap separating me from divinity and quietly wondered if the “Moonies” had moved their operation to Reno. No matter I had the soda.

Last week, I went to see a different Dr. Brown.

Russell Brown is the senior Creative Director of Adobe Systems Incorporated and is fond of telling the audience that it's Russell with two L’s. He has been with Adobe for over 20 years and is a 2002 Photoshop Hall of Fame winner. He writes free scripts which include “Dr. Brown’s Merge-A-Matic” and “Dr. Brown’s 1-2-3 Process.”

Sitting in the audience I am easily swept into the cult of Dr. Brown. In the front row there are a gaggle of devotees that hang on his every word. He makes me want to run right out and trash my copy of CS2 and purchase the upgrade. In fact, as they raffle off a copy at the end of the presentation, I have to hold back tears when I don’t win.

I could talk about the merits and value of purchasing CS3, but if you’re already considering it, I am pretty sure I don’t have to help sell it. So go ahead and crack the cap, it is worth it--every last drop.

Thursday, January 03, 2008